Monday, December 7, 2015

Self Doubt and Doubt That Shakes The Self

You are perfect. Your life is perfect. With a problem here and a problem there, you manage to settle with them and love your life as it is. You feel fabulous sometimes being single. No one is there to stop you from doing anything, no desires that you ought to fulfil, no restrictions,no rules. The most beautiful part of being single is that you don't care about anyone talking to anyone. You don't care if the person that you are talking to even each day is talking to other people as well. But then, you really don't have anybody which is tormenting enough which is why this happens:

Eves are not alone on this Earth. There are Adams to disrupt the lives of these free birds. In every Eve's life, there comes an Adam who gives her the apple of love, The apple that she was avoiding for a long time is finally given to her by the Adam that she is attracted to.

This is when we fall in love. A feeling which i am not eligible enough to explain. The life becomes more than beautiful after you get into a relationship with the one you love. This person makes you feel so deeply happy that you get addicted to this feeling. This is the most careless time of a relationship when all you do is think about this person you love ignoring all the other things. If you find a flaw, or two for that matter then, "it doesn't matter. He's a human, and humans make mistakes. No one is perfect."

With time, things start to bother you. His company, his lifestyle, his attitude towards things; all these things bother you. Above all of them, the people he talks to and upto what level he talks to them. Ethically it is not right to create a scene over these things, after all no one is perfect. remember!
But no, that is not possible. With love comes possessiveness. But with possessiveness doesn't come its acceptance. There are very few people out there who can handle a girl's possessiveness in complete terms.

I mentioned 'complete terms' because girls don't show that they are very possessive. They always think that the boy might get angry if she asks him to stop talking to this and that. In order to protect her relationship, she doesn't speak up her heart to him, which marks the beginning of 'self doubt' in her. She begins to think that she is not good enough for the guy and then her confidence over herself vanishes. All she sees in the mirror is flaw.. all big flaws.

Self doubt becomes worse when she sees him talking other girls or any girl whatsoever. Yes it makes no sense because this is a world with both genders and apart from the girlfriend, guys will have other friends who are girls. It should be acceptable, But then, psychologically it is not. Self doubt creates a situation where you start doubting the person who was supposed to be "perfect" for you. And this doubt shakes you to the core because you can't even talk about it to him for the fear of losing him,

I believe that ignoring it, not talking to him about it, makes it worse, If you believe in the person you love, you should have the confidence to talk to him about these things.

Huh! Easy said than done!
Even i can't achieve what i believe.


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